beau [watching the crew succumb to some scantily-clad green-hued ladies on-what else-star trek]: they put off this really powerful pheromone that causes men’s adrenaline to spike. me: sweetie… we all do that.boys are cute when they think they’re immune to us.

i like when this happens. i’m sitting in my little house-i’ve lived here almost two months now, long enough for dust to accumulate in the corners of the old hardwood floors and for the dishes to have settled in their permanent places in the cupboards. we’ve learned the creaky spots in the hall and we’re…

i got into a pretty heated argument yesterday with someone i considered a friend. his daughter and mine were friends, we’d spent time hanging out together; for the past year or so we commiserated over single parenthood and financial strife and all the other things we had in common. i thought he was an open-minded,…

my neighbor came over a little while ago and asked if she could have a cup of milk. i gave it to her. she apologized for having to ask. i told her not to apologize, because next week i may need something from her. we live next door to each other. we share a street,…

when there are all these things i want to say to my sweetheart, but the words get all tangled up and shy and hide when i try to say them, so all i can do is switch off the kitchen light, lock the front door, find my way to the bedroom in the dark, crawl…

it’s linked over there —->bliss-trippin’.keeping track of things that make me happy. i’ll still keep this one updated with my rants and tales and whatever else i think you need to hear. also, i figured out how to get them to automatically post to facebook. i’m catching up… almost to the 21st century, tech-wise. oh…

um…

i don’t know why i called it that.

here.

i have to learn to accept the good things in my life as readily as i accept the bad, or i’m going to lose everything. i’m terrified of the damage i’ve already done. changes are in order; i refuse to let insecurity and fear and lack of sleeping take away this perfect thing. to be…